I've been watching your kindness keep a lonely company

Look at the fire and think of me

now playing: push and pull | purity ring

mood: content


It’s finals week and there’s just been a lot of emotions.

I finished two finals yesterday at the most polar times (from each other) possible: 8-11am and 7-10pm.

Today I’ve been taking it easy: starting with giving my mind a break- woke up late(@noon heh, but Ari texted me in the morning wishing me goodluck with finals over LINEapp which surprised me because I thought she didn't use LINEapp! ♥ But seeing her name at 8 in the morning woke me up frantically thinking it was work related/panicking for a second because I thought I overslept and missed work), taking a stroll around campus, getting tea at Coffee Bean (I’ve been trying to give up coffee! or try and cut back on it… so far it’s working), chatting with friends that I ran into at Coffee Bean, getting a day off and not working (in lab), wearing a skirt! (since it’s almost impossible to be wearing anything above my ankles these days), taking dumb selfies (see above) per usual, listening to + + +GRIMES+ + + and The Strokes and getting good vibes from them, updating my travel blog with three posts about my past trip to Italy (there's still a lot more to come but that's that for now),

Besides Disneyland and going to the beach, I haven’t got much plans for spring break yet. oh SHOOT. This post just reminded me that I have an abstract to complete before spring break ends for the research symposium ;__; oh well. There’s always work to be done. n e v e r e n d i n g

Mmm there was a desert storm at around evening ~730 pm? Rolling thunder, flashes of lightning, and then heavy downpour. Perfect way to end the night.

xo i

I hate myself. I hate how I ruin everything. It's not that I try to ruin things, but rather I let things gain control of me.

It's so frustrating and I don't know when to stop or when to say no.

Routines

Listening to: Nocturne No. 11 in g minor, Op 37 No. 1 | Frédéric Chopin
Mood: Sleepy

Most things in life are unexpected, even if they were planned.
Happy Friday.

-i

ps, ABT was at Segerstrom this past weekend performing Sleeping Beauty and I didn't even know till now?? :'(

R U Mine?

You got that James Dean day dream look in your eye
And I got that red lip classic thing that you like
And when we go crashing down, we come back every time.
Cause we never go out of style.....

...you got that long hair, slicked back, white t-shirt.
And I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt,
And when we go crashing down, we come back every time.
Cause we never go out of style.

-TS

Belated, but it's okay




(I don't really like part two besides the fact that it takes place in Paris)





Beautiful romantic sappy Free People stuff for Valentine's Day. (Yes I might have already posted some of the videos above before but they're great!)
Have a beautiful Wednesday!

xo i

I have so many thoughts running around in my head right now I don't know where to start.
I'm also disappointed with the fact that I have not yet pulled myself together and winter quarter is halfway done already.

If I could, I would redo high school to perfect things that I failed at. But mostly because it was so fun and its been the highlight of my life thus far (minus going abroad and seeing new things).
If I could, I would redo college more headstrong and having declared a double major in philosophy and minor in music. And not waiting to study everything the last few hours before an exam. And, I would learn french because I don't know why I didn't, to be honest.

#regrats.

The past few days have been good.
People are kind to me in class and asked me how long I've been dancing because I (I'm assuming my form) (quoting them) "look really pretty". I am extremely flattered because there are other dancers in class that's been in studios never-ending since forever and such.
I also got research yesterday. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity.

All I need to work on is stop being lazy even though I could list reasons on end about why I deserve this "laziness" sometimes.

xo i