Spin me around

now playing: J.S. Bach | Partita for Violin no. 2 - Chaconne Performed by Itzhak Perlman



How does it feel to always have the leading role, attention.

It devours me.

Do you feel competition?

Never.

Do you think you'll be replaced one day?

I wouldn't let her.

I wish I knew where to get another Lula magazine.
And I wish my mom had kept her record player.

Update

I'm supposed to be writing my short paper on the ethics of cognitive enhancement for my biomed philosophy class. But I prefer spending time here, than on the cold darkness of Pages arguing a subject that won't ever be resolved.

(Taken with my iphone during spring break) I am easily inspired by photography blogs, and vegan or breakfast (cooking) blogs; anything beyond that would be blogs that are like Bldg 25 where there are just an array of things that inspire me from DIY to styling to decor or music. Lately I've been listening to full albums on Rdio; I find some of these really alluring:

-An Awesome Wave | alt-j

-If You Leave | Daughter

-Hummingbird | Local Natives

-Teen Dream | Beach House

-The North | Stars

-The Lumineers | The Lumineers

I also wish I had more time to go shopping. I've seen some things online at Urban Outfitters, Madewell, American Apparel, and Brandy Melville that I'd like to make part of my wardrobe, but I seem to never have time for that. Shopping isn't the only thing, recently a lot of restaurants have been opening up which I haven't even had time to try yet. There's also an açai bowl & juice establishment at the OC Mart Mix that I really want to try. Speaking of which I have two midterms in the next two weeks and a presentation, then the weeks following are finals. Wow this quarter really flew by. I also should try and remember to register for my second part of summer school. Hope things aren't too chaotic for everyone else as it has been for me.

xox i

p.s. Sorry about this post being incredibly messy, but I just wanted to update everyone with things that I haven't posted on for a while since most of my recent posts have been complaint-revolving and self-loathe

Drifting

I wish I could get back to blogging more like I did in high school. I remember I started blogging back in 2009, and I used to get inspired by a lot of random photography blogs. Back then fashion blogs or Youtubes were so rare, so not a lot of people blogged or had interest in blogging, it was mainly English lovers, or people who just loved to write. So blogging was a treasure. I still think it is pretty special today because even though 'blogging' is very common, very few people actually 'blog' when they say that they are 'blogging'. What people now mean is that they are on tumblr, clicking that 'reblog' button which means nothing but "I-want-this-overly-edited-picture-on-my-tumblr-too". Nobody says that they are going to go blog and actually go to their blog and write something meaningful or inspiring anymore.
I try to stay inspired.
-i

next time

+colette wings
+grand park
+getty villa
+intelligentsia
+more sample sales
+syrup desserts
+american apparel factory sale
+Joan's on Third
+Venice canals

lust list

mood: irritated
now playing: Step | Vampire Weekend
+Vampire Weekend's new album Modern Vampires of the City
+Karen Walker sunnies
+Coco Mademoiselle Chanel parfum
+honey lavender tea and corn bread from Native Foods
♥i

I got a car!

My parents bought me a red SUV yesterday afternoon.
I didn't really have a say in it, nor do I really need it.
But I am thankful.
-i.

Exams are slowly creeping in, and papers are all stacking up waiting to be written and turned in.
Stress is consuming me faster than I have ever imagine it to.
I feel so nauseous and nervous all the time. I'm restless and I just have this constant "I think I'm going to vomit" feeling and my head hurts.
I don't think I can do this anymore.

It's me vs science vs anxiety attacks.
And I'm in last place.
-i.