31 July 2014


Racism makes me hate myself and loathe myself for being anything but "white". 

But am I discrimating for disliking racists?

30 July 2014


It's the end of July. Here's a list of things I've been doing or have done:

>running to the post office a lot to send packages out
>going to my cousin's house to help out
>playing the piano
>started reading brain on fire (Cahalan's memoir is gooood!)
>cleaning out my room (still, yes I know)
>got tickets to see the Arctic Monkeys, which I am SO STOKED about!! ...even though the seats are not very good, but this decision was super last minute
>watching bob's burger
>going to the pool!
>watched 22 Jump Street
>getting (a lot of) juice at Nékter
>reached 2048 on the iPhone game
>started my own 'no-gym-needed' exercise routine
>applied for a bakery job...and crossing my fingers for it
>brainstormed some more ideas for my other blog :)

...August is just around the corner! Can't wait to see what the next month brings :)

21 July 2014


She had a face straight outta magazine

God only knows but you'll never leave her
Her balaclava is starting to chafe
And when she gets his gun he's begging, "Babe, stay, stay, stay, stay, stay."

I'll give you one more time
We'll give you one more fight
Said one more line
Will I know you

Now if you never shoot, you'll never know
And if you never eat, you'll never grow
You've got a pretty kind of dirty face
And when she's leaving your home she's begging you, "Stay..."

Laying on the ground
smoking another cigarette
while tears pour out of the corner of my kohl-lined smudged lids
choked up over discolored thoughts

Summer Plans

now playing: high | tove lo
mood: studious turned procrastinating

Very excited for the next two months!!
Hopefully I am able to see my favorite artist perform.
My entire August will be free, but hopefully I'll do something productive.
And when September arrives I'll be in Italy!!! I can't wait for Positano, Almafi, Cinque Terre, Capri, Sorrento etc etc!


16 July 2014

People are like nets. Some closely woven and others loosely. 

All nets tell you they will catch you when you fall. Until the split second you come in contact with the net, it sounds pretty trusting. 

Your fake friends are the nets that are loosely woven together with fake promises. Because when you fall into them they let you slip right through their loosely knit words

07 July 2014

She's Got You High

now playing: she's got you high | mumm-ra

Sometimes I get so caught up in the moment, getting angry and such at insignificant little things, that I forget to enjoy life and enjoy youth when I can. I know this sounds weird but I just went on daydreamgiselle.tumblr.com and viewed the tumblr via the page instead of on my newsfeed home page and I just remembered suddenly everything that inspires me and makes the person I am today. I started playing mumm-ra's "she's got you high" and although it's not a specific favorite of mine (or a favorite at all), I think because it's connected to 500 Days of Summer, suddenly the image of LA comes into mind and I think about Hanna-Beth and all those silly things C and I obsessed over, and the LA trips H, B, and I take during breaks....and everything just felt right and good.

I think I need to stop getting so caught up in the moment and just live. Live for the travels I yearn and the art(istic styles) that call out to me.

Ahhhhh I miss traveling.

01 July 2014

31+ Days of Health

Starting tomorrow
Short lab to Netktər. (week 1)
Progress route to a longer one. (week 2)
(week 3-4) "jog" the entire NW starting from house up to the hills then back down.

Starting August, wall stretching and crunches.
By the time school starts, I will be TONED FOR BALLET! :)