23 May 2016

Summer To Do

When prelims end:

Big Bear retreat
Continue the job hunt
Get back to working out at the gym
/on finding myself/
Beach day(ze)
Update brunchinglady blog
Continue vlog edits/upload
DC/NYC + Euro trip
Continue weekend coffee crawls
Learn Python

21 May 2016

Listened to Your Problems, Now Listen to Mine

It didn't matter what they wanted to see
He thought he saw someone that looked just like me
The summer memory that just never dies
We worked too long and hard to give it no time
He sees right through me, it's so easy with lies
Cracks in the road that I would try and disguise
He runs his scissor at the seam in the wall
He cannot break it down or else he would fall
One thousand lonely stars hiding in the cold
Take it, I don't wanna sing anymore

...And all I hear is the last thing that you said

Hurts me so much; makes me nostalgic.
I miss you so much.

16 May 2016

Random Access Memories

now playing: RAM | Daft Punk
currently: freaking out

I have not been this overwhelmed since undergraduate years.
There is SO much I need to do, and even though I have been slowly conquering them all I think it is starting to catch up with me and nipping at me D:

-design and make a flyer for IEEE grad bash
-study for prelims (thermo/crystals/EMM/inorganic chem/NEMs)
-lit review for my NEMs project
-NEMs project
-LC assignment
-dept evals
-dept project
-make 4x updates

Got to go to the beach house this past weekend. It was amazzeeballs.
(I'm excited for our retreat after prelims....)
Back to reality now. It is truly like undergraduate years again. I hope I get to sleep tonight.


29 February 2016

Running to the Sound of the Light

I love the warm days spent listening to us in love,
wind grazing across our faces
cheekbones kissed by the Southern California sun.

I watched you dance on the soft brown sand
Droplets of the sea jumping along
And your carefree frolicking, tango across the malleable ground

The way you drop your arms,
hands slipping down invisible walls, skirt circling
and your beautiful caramel hair floating around you like fairy thread, glistening.

You ask me to come along
and I say- baby girl, I'm already there.

hippie child
sweet bambi love
my only one

I am in love
I am in love
I am in love with you in dreams.

05 January 2016

new year, new resolutions

Just came back from Japan, school has officially begun again. But I guess that would be another post are saved for another day.
This year, I resolve to...

1 Stop wasting time (same as last year)
2 Get another internship
3 Stick to a workout routine (unsuccessful last year)
4 Learn at least two skills off of my list of technical things I'd like to learn
5 Try to do my own work, mind my own business, and stop worrying about people trying to take me down
6 Cut back on coffee intake (unsuccessful last year)
7 Stop buying cheap things, establish a sense of style (still a work in progress)
8 Track purchases down (already failed)

I'm glad that I was able to meet almost all of my resolutions last year.

05 December 2015


currently: Watching Legally Blonde

Done with finals and academics for fall quarter of grad school, but the stress is still overwhelming.
Two weeks left until winter break.
I really need to see a doctor.

the things people say about you can be pretty mean, and they start getting to your head when it stays around long enough


23 November 2015

To Learn

RTL (micro architecture)
VLSI (do i know this already??)
logic circuit design

French language
Danish?? language
Typography Families
Latte Art (finally learned how to pull shots correctly, now to learn how to master frothing milk...)
Marketing 101
creating lens flare (is this possible?)
drum set (sos lorraine please help my t-grip)(sos timmy help teach)
bjj or kickboxing (so different but yeah)
insanity, but i suppose establishing a routine first..
professional development
get back into biking and swimming (bruhhh)
omg. i have. to learn. how to. play an acoustic. THIS HAS BEEN PUT OFF FOR WAY TOO LONG.
style me. bc wtf is this nonsense 17 year old brandy grunge shit i've got going on.. (oh wait. i did this so that lab peeps can chill da faq out lel)
I have a killer headache right now.
But I have to keep pushing through.

There's nothing as rewarding as the results after (literal) blood, sweat, tears, and many over night hours put into making a show happen. So here's to a new performance in the making.
Wish Sarah was still here in my life to remind us that there's no reward for the lazy. That we aren't good enough until we're perfect.
Will always remember to keep my head high and my mind humble.
To dream big, and shoot for the moon.

Justice will find us someday, and they will wake some day to see past all that's been wrong.