19 May 2014

Shallow Mondays

A list of shallow nonsense things I like (to do...which serves no purpose except making me happy):

-early mornings/dawn
-people watching
-being in Newport (being in beach cities/just by the beach makes me happy)
-shopping or brunching at FI
-movies at cinemas
-movies at the AMC in The District
-beach days, just lounging in loose shirts, shorts and sandals
-taking pictures
-wearing dresses and skirts
-shopping and browsing through Target even when I don't really need anything
-coffee chats at cafes (though I really should cut coffee out because it is so harmful for the body)
-going through organic markets; they have a very different smell compared to regular markets- fresh, raw, and earthy.
-drinks in glass bottles
-messenger bags, or shoulder bags, they feel much more relaxed and casual and sometimes you need a break off from being fancy
-salads and barely drizzled salads, healthy refreshing and a little flavor to give it a kick, and not enough to be unhealthy
-outdoor shopping centers at night

Some have been repeated over and over throughout the years.
I could go on and on and on.....until another day I guess.

18 May 2014


I remember every day that I spent dreaming.
Of leaving.This place behind I would run away from thinking' adding up all the days spent wasted.
Chasing the girls we hated.
Some things, they, they never change.
Take me back to the sleepless nights.
The stupid fights.
It never mattered who was wrong or who was right.
You're all a part of me.
We're alive and we drive to the center of it.
Where we know we're all fine and this just can't be it
And in the end we all know we only breathe for so long.
So tonight's the night we all roll along.
Nostalgia is forever me.
I miss you. My teenage years.
And we are forever one, and you are intertwined deep in my soul making the person I am today.

14 May 2014

No Time

listening to: Beach House's album Bloom
There is literally no time in my school life.
Ever since high school started, I feel like I've always been at school from 6am-"9pm"...literally like our official end time was 9pm but we never even leave school property until 11pm-ish because we're cleaning up. But seriously my teammates (aka family) and I used to LIVE in the west end of the school ⅔ of our time at school. If I wasn't in the practice room, I was on stage, or in the studio, or in the gym. Literally we used to lay on the gym floor like it wasn't dirty at all because we were always exhausted and that was basically our home, and our real home was our second home.
Coming to college, I think a lot of people think I have a lot of time because most of that time that people see, is time I spend wasted- procrastinating, but if I weren't, and actually utilizing my time with 100% efficiency oh my gosh I'd probably I don't know HAHA. Anyways ugh this is going back to freshman year college again!

Tomorrow my schedule is SO hectic.
9-11 english
11-1230 fair
1230-1 lunch
130-? counseling
2-330 math
330-4 abstract
4-6 meet up with "x"
6-7 dinner with family?

And then somewhere between that I have to go to the theater to buy tickets and go to the office. WHAT!?
I feel so overwhelmed. And right now I still have to finish my english reading, homework, film viewing, and then math homework.
Wowowowowowowow hahaha. I haven't even coordinated my outfit for tomorrow yet!
...and I just spent too many minutes typing this out, and frick me for being so lazy and weak, I took a 45 min nap earlier, someone slap me for being a lazy ass.


ψ θ φ ....and sometimes σ

Last spring quarter (spring 2013), I took electromagnetics physics, and my professor wrote pretty fast and not-neat, so that his phi, psi, and thetas all look the same...(and occasionally sigma). Yeah I gave up.

07 May 2014

Organic Mechanisms

"What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him?"

"Our pockets were full of deng, so there was no real need from the point of view of crasting any more pretty polly to tolchock some old veck in an alley and viddy him swim in his blood while we counted the takings and divided by four, nor to do the ultra-violent on some shivering starry grey-haired ptitsa in a shop and go smecking off with the till's guts. But, as they say, money isn't everything."

"There was me...my three droogs...we sat in the Korova Milkbar trying to make up our rassoodocks what to do with the evening. The Korova milkbar sold milk-plus, milk plus vellocet or synthemesc or drencrom, which is what we were drinking. This would sharpen you up and make you ready for a bit of the old ultra-violence."

-A Clockwork Orange

06 May 2014

Who's Side

I've been having a sudden adoration and gush of love for my school lately. Sure I liked the campus before, but most of my other feelings towards my Uni has been pretty neutral. I wouldn't say I disliked it but everything was just- "I'm here to learn, so be it".

I guess its a good thing. And maybe it's the sudden realization that I am going to graduate within a year or two.


Things I love (and inspire me) Tuesdays

- wing-ficked eyeliner
- golden age hollywood ("classical hollywood") cinemas/films and settings
- freepeople intimates
- 1940s - 1950s
-1950's print advertisements
- my Victoria Secret Noir Tease perfume with an atomizer
- phenakistoscope, zoopraxiscope
- cherry red nail laquer
- Inglenook Winery property
- 15 denier tights
- black lace
- porcelain skin
- femme fatale

Happy Tuesday!
xo i

05 May 2014

This is sad.
But I need to start a diet that cuts out coffee, and refined sugars.

/ healing auto-immune
/ cosmetics ingredients stuff

Coca Cola removing BVO from drinks

Newsweek writes that "Coca-Cola is in the process of removing brominated vegetable oil from its entire line of beverages... after PepsiCo announced it would remove the controversial chemical, also patented as a flame retardant, from Gatorade".1

In the article they also describe and define BVO as "...an emulsifier in fruit-flavored sports drinks and sodas to evenly distribute flavoring oils throughout the liquid" thus Coca Cola company will be "...transitioning from the use of brominated vegetable oil (BVO) to sucrose acetate isobutyrate (SAIB) and/or glycerol ester of rosin (singly or in combination)", as- “'Glycerol ester of rosin is commonly found in chewing gum and beverages, and SAIB has been used in beverages for over 14 years'" 1. However if you go onto the chemical company Eastman's website and look up what SAIB (here) is, you'll see that the description categorizes SAIB as an emulsifier ("chemical additives that encourage the suspension of one liquid in another, as in the mixture of oil and water in margarine, shortening, ice cream, and salad dressing. Closely related to emulsifiers are stabilizers, substances that maintain the emulsified state" (2britannica) ) from reading that SAIB is "...characterized as a modifying extender for film-formers and extrudable plastics" (3Eastman).

Waaait...but wasn't the whole point of removing BVO was that it was an emulsifier? The grossest part is where Eastman's info pamphlet says that SAIB "...is useful in lacquers, printing inks, hot melts, and similar protective and decorative coatings" (3Eastman). Ew wait, so they "improved" the situation by replacing BVO with SAIB...aka also used in inks and plastics?

BVO is "bad for you" because it is made up of and includes bromine which is toxic and corrosive aka poisonous.(FYI- bromine also acts as a sedative)//(btw- idk if you guys know but our breads today are made up of bromine instead of iodine which causes thyroid problems..that is why we should stay away/refrain from eating too many bread products..basically bromine acts as an endocrine disruptor aka "overdosing" of bread causes us to have low thyroid aka 'hypothyroid' problems....leads to cancer. (you're welcome) Consumption of too much 'bromide' products leads to the bromide replacing the iodine in our body....well there aren't a lot of foods that contain iodine and our body doesn't naturally produce it sooo load up on the seaweed??).4,5

I mean, I don't know much about SAIB and the exact negative effects of how its chemical structure affects the human body other than that it enlarges the liver.6 But, I don't think that consumption of chemicals that normally go onto wood floor hardeners or nail polish/laquers sound any better than loading up on bromine.
I guess my bottom line and point is....water is your best and loyal friend.


Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional or anywhere near being one. I am not saying that I am 100% right in every thing that I wrote above. This above is just a collection and composition of research/findings/and personal knowledge. Feel free to comment or correct me if you believe something is wrong. I am open to discussions and debates (not arguing/arguments). ALSO- sorry if the citation formats are wrong, but I did include source links to everywhere I seek knowledge and information from. Thank you for your respect.
Hopefully I didn't, but I tried not to "sensationalize headlines" or "cherry pick" results.

4(knowledge source)
5(knowledge from my dad)
6(US National Library of Medicine National Instiute of Health)

Go Wilcox!

"Kim A. Wilcox, chancellor of UC Riverside, today announced his intention to expand the university’s faculty by 300 ladder-rank scholars, provide for the addition of new facilities, and take new measures to achieve increased globalization...[Wilcox] called for several specific measures at UC Riverside related to faculty growth, campus physical planning and globalization.

Wilcox plans to aggressively expand the number of scholars on the UC Riverside campus, announcing that 300 new ladder-rank faculty members will be recruited in the next five years. He is beginning to convene discussions about what types of disciplines will see the most growth, he said, adding that diversity will be an important goal.

Wilcox announced his intention to accelerate planning for a new interdisciplinary research building dedicated to faculty research. The facility will provide 150,000 square feet of space for as many as 60 research groups. In addition, the chancellor noted the need for an events center that would provide indoor space for commencements, convocations, conferences and athletics events.

As regards future growth, Wilcox asked the community to consider building future facilities to the south of the campus along the 215 freeway. The location, he said, would provide 'contiguous research and instructional space to our south.'"