26 December 2009


For it was not my ear you whispered,
but into my heart.
It was not my lips you kissed,

but my soul.

25 December 2009

merry christmas.

"On this day, God wants you to know... that a successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing." -Facebook.

for christmas my dad bought me this fujifilm instax mini 25.

it's actually the bomb dot com; however film is 10 for $13. T_T but he was nice enough to get me the character themed ones. (hellokitty, pooh, doraemon)

ohh its so cute(: katrina has a pogo now. haha man we're like soul sisters. XD

my sister bought me a juicy couture bracelet, socks, and a jacket (that we apparently 'share' LOL) and my mom got me a juicy shirt. hahahaha
my mom actually got sick on christmas so we didn't really do anything interesting, and i started the driving stuff online. so yea. teddy and i are going to watching Avatar tomorrow at 1030 so that might be interesting since my sister even said that the movie was 'epic' haha. I want to get the movie Amelie and watch it. Katrina and I are doing 500 days of summer and pleasantville next saturday then the photoshoot ♥ btw katrina, when do you want me to come over?

i hope everyone is having a merry christmas. i know i am having nice one with my fake mini 6 inch pink tree, isabella, gingerbread snowman candle, and pj's. (:

six more days left of this decade...

24 December 2009

this is MADNESS

as long as i love my family, this will then, always anger me WG CHAMPIONSHIPS SCORES 09 i mean ALL FIVE PAGES TOO ):<


28 October 2009

isabelle mcnally

one of the cutest NYC socialites out there. Daughter of Pastis and Balthazar owner Keith McNally, friend of the Misshapes, Sophia Lamar, Cory Kennedy and Agyness Deyn, and model for Urban Outfitters and Obesity & Speed.

16 October 2009


It’s kinda official when it says it on facebook, haha, so I thought I might as well share the news with you too.
Michael and I are now together. ”In a relationship”. Not that anything has changed since last week – but we said the words...

Well, now you know. (: ♥
/ Ingrid

10.16.09 ♥

21 August 2009


i've return

if you ever go to puerto rico:
bring a jacket so you won't get the fucking flu i got.
learn spanish or else prepare to do hand gestures
mcdonalds french fries are so fresh and not so greasy
mcdonalds and kfc are everywhere
go to biobay
be careful of jelly fish
hobos are everywhere- it's ok.
be nice. everyone is nice
there are fiesty drivers but drive slow.
oh- and dont take a three transfer flight ever.

i liked it theree.

“If everybody minded their own business, the world would go around a great deal faster than it does.”
alice in wonderland

11 August 2009

sweet sixteen

wow it's my 16th birthday already. it feels like i've just turned 15. i remember when i turned 15. It was in Toykyo, Ginza and Shinjiku to be exact. It was the day we departed from our one week family, when I said goodbye to Dickson, James, Ryan, and Tommy. Then we took the bullet train to Tokyo to meet my father's godmother. Her step on took us to Ginza, ITOYA and the Snoopy Festival at Mitsukoshi ^-^ Then we took a Tokyo trip my father's godmother graciously arranged for us(: And we had unlimited 90min sit-down SHABU-SHABU BOOYA!

today was not a good birthday. i went into elite crying. and i couldn't say thank you to all the people who wished me a wonderful birthday, then i left class cos i felt sick but i Had my sweet sixteen party on Saturday. we went jetskiing at dana point; chloe&i ted&alice&ashley michael&joseph&curtis on the PWCs were how we divided them. Everyone fell into the water exccept for chloe and me(: Ted's even flipped over all the way. haha. we went to elephant bar for dinner, and then we did grunion runs at 11-12am at newport at night. although we didn't stay late enough for the grunions, we still had a blast, talking about life. (:

there's supposed to be meteor showers tonight. <3

08 August 2009

grunion runs

at 11 pm all the way to midnight at Newport Beach. No kidding.

there was actually a decent amount of people there. lots of asians. ha-ha. we just had our flashlights and buckets and caught them with our hands. they come to the shore to lay eggs.

we caught three of them.

bah-dum bah-dum...i can't wait for tomorrow jet skiing later...then dinner. and then lets have another grunion run shall we?


01 August 2009

LG icecream かわいい~

so i still can't get over my new phone. its absolutely delicious and envy-worth. (:

so i'm planning to get some cute charms for it. ^-^
yesterday, i got to go visit my grandpa over at monterey park, there i went to 2 japanese stores {makeup/daily necessities} かわいい~~ its too bad im totally broke because all the good makeup and nail polish were on sale and pretty! (:
for dinner, we ate at tasty garden; I had my favorites: fried salty chicken wings/bbq beef strips and hot hk style milktea with boba. おいしい!

it's been a good week ^-^

22 July 2009

Apologies for my absence from the blog. I haven't been in the blogging mood lately.

22 June 2009

some are nameless

i am

i want
a million wishes.

i have
so much to give and learn; but i don`t know it yet.
been procrastinating since grade 7

i wish
for goodness.
and a good sense of direction.

i hate
people who act stupid on purpose.
annoying, clingy people.
hypocrites; yet, i`m one, so i must hate myself.

i fear
losing things.

i hear
cocorosie singing werewolf.
one of my favorite songs.

i search
for fulfillment.

i wonder
about a lot of things.

i regret
the past,
but try not to.

i love

i ache
when i start to miss people, places, things.

i always
breathe, blink, beat.
end up in a tangle of thoughts

i usually

i am not
a patient person.

i dance
in class
to feel
to show.

i sing
to myself in my soul.
to soothe myself

i never
know what is the best.

i rarely
do the right thing.

i cry
too much

i am not
happy around people who make me frustrated.
happy around people who make me want to yell out of anger.

i lose
when it comes to memorizing.
when you defeat me with your gaze.

i'm confused
about life.
about people.
and especially history.

i need
some time.

i should
stop procrastinating.

i am
me, myself, and i.

19 June 2009


Yesterday was the last day of school. It did not feel like the last day of school. Everything seemed to whisk by so fast. I don't remember anything but Band Camp in August, then school started and there were the football games and tiresome practices every night that lasted until 9pm or later. My classes and teachers were mediocre and fine, not interesting or pessimistic enough to be pondering on. Everything seemed to fly by as I just stand and observe. The only thing I actually paid attention to, and stuck in my memory, was guard. I remember that Sara came, and she was new, then a lot of people seemed to be complaining about her, then soon we had an incredible bond, and then Winterguard came, we placed top 3 quite many times. Then one day; she just left. And that was it. Then the team was dull, boring...unfocused.

I became slightly ill and I couldn't go to the bonfire. I didn't want to go at first, but when I finally wanted to go, I became ill. wonderful.

I'm immature and indecisive.
September i was skeptical. October i wanted to cry. there was a two week period when i felt
fine. it's June and I'm forcing myself not to cave in.

potential: n. the inherent ability or capacity for growth, development, or coming into being.

don't know if i have the potential to move forward.
fickle, my mind changes as much as i change the color of my nails.
retarded and immobile. without creativity.
i wish i was brilliant.
i would be able to conjure brilliant objects out of my brilliant head
and turn my brilliant ideas into brilliant pieces of art.
but because i.'m not brilliant, i'm stuck with being mediocre.

what..s my potential potential?

19 April 2009


we had our WGSCA championships yesterday. my goodness the start of it was not going so well. before we left we left the snacks and a rifle at school. then at San Juan Hills HS, sara had lost the keys and our CD and CD players weren't working. the worst part was, we had forgot half of the purple flag back at school which means half of the people couldn't perform the first half of the show. Luckly, there was a school that had similar colour and patterned flags so we borrowed theirs; from scrippt high school. however, the flags were weighted better than ours and was 6 feet tall, ours were shorter. :l during the show, we dropped way too much and it was almost worse than our performance at san diego. i felt so ashamed during the show...i had dropped three times, and i never drop during competitions. i had failed my solo feature and triplet feature. and now obviously i had lost so much general effect points,later when we were folding the floor off the gym floor, we went over by 19 seconds....

during the awards ceremony, we had our roses, and wore our tiaras, glowsticks, and leis necklaces, and held everyone's hands while walking out. we just prayed for something above 15th place, like just alittle. and then as they were announcing the green division, from the bottom to the top, i asked jenny if it was our division and she said no, so i turned more impatient as they finished up the green divisoin when all of a sudden, WITH THE SCORE OF 82.20 a SCORE OF 82.20....NORTHWOOD!! our team kinda just stood stoned there, like out of it, because we thought 1) it wasn't our division 2) ya right we did so bad how could we possibly placed 2nd 3) OHMYGOODNESS REALLY?

we walked out and some freshman in the team were pretty shocked, and some looked like crying ahahaha we were happy. we recieved second place, a silver medal each, and a letter for our letterman jacket, and a picture as a team(: i was proud but disappointed in a way.

we later found out that the team that placed first was the team that lended their flags to us, so in a way it was good karma and they deserved it, as in like if they hadn't given us their flags, we wouldn't be able to have made such a good show and placed second. the only disapointing was that we lost by .1 our score= 82.20 their score = 82.30 wow right? just because we went 19 seconds over when we folded our floor and someone stepped out of bounds during the show. STUPID penalties D:< hahaa but i guess its all good at the end because we had put everything into it, we had worked toegether, and best thing was the judges told us that we technically won they had wanted us to win and they were mad that we didn't..it was our penalty that made us loose....so (: i guess you can say, we had invisible gold medals (: :: Scores from RA Championships at San Juan Hills HS

Regional A Green
1 Scripps Ranch 82.30
2 Northwood 82.20
3 Canyon HS 81.40
3 Katella 81.40
5 Santana 81.10
6 San Dimas 79.00
7 South Torrance 75.50
8 Montclair 74.80
9 Huntington Beach 73.50
10 Pomona 71.90
11 Hilltop 71.20
12 Foothill 70.20
13 Bishop Amat 66.40
14 Santiago (Corona) #2 63.20

...after all that, grace's bday party ahahha. we ate at macaroni grill, and we went to AMC to watch 17 again. that movie was sooo cute and it made me so sad :l ahaha and zac effron was so cute hahah X] ughh now it made me totaly think back and wished that we were still together ]:< ughh im so depressed now. blahhhhh why was i so selfish, why was i so clingy, i hate myself. 17 made me cry so many times. it was so sweet :l

i kinda wanna see it again.

(ps. i wrote this all during my break at DSC hahahah oops my bad)

13 April 2009

like a waterfall in slow motion

Það besta sem guð hefur skapað er nýr dagur
(The best thing god has created is a new day)

im suffering from a heartburn and indigestion :l
its coming back.
all the ed things.
the meds.
those nights


08 April 2009


"You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between you and the people you love and the people you meet, a barrier thin as the glass of a mirror, you never come all the way out of the mirror; you stand, for the rest of your life, with one foot in this world and no one in another, where everything is upside down and backward and sad." -b.o.a.d.

we dissected our fetal pig today. i was so sad and saddened by just the process and the image of it. theres too much formaldehyde that is still stuck in my nasal passage that it floods my head and nose, trying to kill me with painful burns and headaches. help.

i absolutely cannot wait for spring break. i want to get ahead on going over to northern california to look at my future schools and get ahead on artwork, go buy my shoes, and get ready for championships on saturday and the part.

hello ED,
we meet again.
i ask of you to please leave me
you hung to me from 05 to 07.
i followed you, only to be left shattered in the remains of what i thought were my dreams. you told me lies. you made promises.
you left me standing wondering what i should do next; you led two years of my life, not much, but a huge impact.
all what was left of what you didn't take was a few flesh and bones, no just bones.
my sad corpse.
she gazed out to the non existing world.
laying her hand on the glass that seperates her. from them. from you.
shut up
the buzzing noises soothe when you stop. when we join hands. when i touch you. when death and i are just a breath away from each other.

my bmi is 15.3 if you do care. i hope you're proud of me.


05 April 2009

just luck.

"In a dream i was a werewolf
my soul was filled with crystal light
lavender ribbons of rain sang
ridding my heart of mortal fight..."

this weekend was totally rad. after school on friday, ashley and i went to watch the fast and furious. we got starbucks from barnes and noble before the movie started. we pissed the worker off cos ashley told her she wanted a mintmocha frap, but they didn't have it so she changed it to the green tea frap, the lady thought ashley wanted the greenTEA so she had to cancel and change everything. when it was my turn, i wanted an iced caffe latte, and the lady's like "an ice coffee"? and i was like sure. cos you know, its coffee too! so she made me a black coffee, and then i was like, "excuse me i wanted a latte" she got mad, called the manager and changed it. but it was good anyways ahhah. the movie was really good. it was intense. during the evening, mum took us to souplantation for our traditional fridays haha. on saturday we had our last competition at corona, it felt good to perform this ave maria show for the last time. i felt sad too, a little disappointed that i never took this too seroiusly, and i was always like "ohhh here we go again." because i now realize that i will never perform this same show again with the same people and the same coach becos there will be new members next year and miss belieze and a new show. it was a lucky day though, we placed first in our division again (: congrats nhsguard. ily ♥ . after all that, mum let me go to bamboozle with my sister from 4-7. originally she didn't want me to go, but since i came home too late, it was too late to sell the tickets anyways. I bought a shirt from babycakes, met we the kings and my children my bride, saw nevershoutnever perform, and got an airbrushed tattoo. its so pretty! its a dancer behind my right shoulder. and today i dont even have homework! :D this is a wonderful weekend.

My day tomorrow:
Mijn dag van morgen:

Ma journée de demain:


7.00 wakeup lazy head
7.45 Off to school
8.30 history with MISTER MAMER oh hes cool
13.45 School ends
16.00 Piano lessons
18.00 guard practice until 20.00
After that: The usual. Music. homework. procrastinating. sleep deprived.


01 April 2009

when we were young.

look liz :D when i first met you on link crew day, what i thought of you ahahha how cute :] . ahhg so much innocence, no drama, just pureness. i crave those days :l

im looking through my old myspace, getting ready to delete it..and i see all those times when there was no backstabbing, and Im just beginning to meet the future me, and I see how I meet people from different middle schools, and just added kids from my school too. I see immature AIM convos that were forwarded to friends. ahh i wiped all memories from my old myspace. ;l


08 March 2009

cannot concentrate

i have lost it.

i can't study for my exam tomorrow. too much things on my mind. i need to stop procrasinating. its so hard. i think i have ADHD or something ugh. i cannot pull myself together.

fucking pops wont let me wear my vans. he says dey're not good for me. they're beautiful too.

im waiting for 17 July to come along cos i can't wait for Harry potter and the half blooded prince. can't wait!!!!

now another bother has come along. if i should do cosmos or not if not i might do it next year or do CTYI. mums doesn't want me to do comsos this year at all i dont think she would approve of ctyi. but then again im not doing cosmos anymore but im doing summer discovery. (: uh its kinda expensive thou, it starts at 6k. dear me! i wanna start a portfolio at RISD or pratt next year. ahh :l too much wants but not enough time.


28 February 2009

i had an 8 hour colorguard practice today.
wow intesnzeee :D
then i left for an hour to go to math tutor and came back. we painted the floor and baby powdered it.
i smelT like a babies' but now im all nice and clean

2 slices of pizza, 3 sodas, 2 waters, one apple, 2 muffins, 1 orange, a plate of grapes. = what i ate. wow.
then i felt like dying on the floor

i have 3 parallels in the show now. :l wonderful. if i slice my head off then you'll know why.

ashley and i went to spectrum yesterday. we went shoppping and i got 2 lovely tops from forever 21 cos i only had fourty dollars to spaare. a tunic and a ruffled top. i wanted so much more rehhh :l

but then we went to watch "hes just not that into you" it was an ohkay movie but it was so cute (: ahah. i fancy that.
souplantation for dinner after that and then i found out i can't tell jokes ahhaha


26 February 2009

fear of you

blah hahaah this is like the millionth one of my online things. but im going to keep it as private as possible now for stalker’s sake. hm i dont know what to write so i’ll just write some basics that i like and what not. its basically copied from my other sites ha. (: ahh btw. i want the curious case of benjamin button soundtrack lots! i have so much homework to do but procrasination pwns me :l

Before, my fear was being vulnerable.

The ability of another human being to possibly
tear apart your insides at any moment was enough to keep me running.

He, however, made my insides come alive,
my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent.

He took away my fear & gave me hope.

But more importantly, for the first time in my life,
instead of wanting to run,
he gave me a reason to stay.

but the day he left me, I see my two stars erupt like satellites & began to fall.

slowly falling, the nightmare of the inside turned out, the unravellin; exploding limbs, mangled flesh, cracked by the impact of bone on bone.

when i look up, the sky is filled with bright blue hearts lit up with fire, when i look down i see my organs torn from their holes.
this is what its like...
a heart bursting, entropy in reverse, everything gets messed up, the senses crossing.
to die..
i finish the sentiece, that i will eternally finish the thoughts.
& i dont know anything except that-
i am not in love with anyone anymore.