08 April 2009

wasted

"You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between you and the people you love and the people you meet, a barrier thin as the glass of a mirror, you never come all the way out of the mirror; you stand, for the rest of your life, with one foot in this world and no one in another, where everything is upside down and backward and sad." -b.o.a.d.

we dissected our fetal pig today. i was so sad and saddened by just the process and the image of it. theres too much formaldehyde that is still stuck in my nasal passage that it floods my head and nose, trying to kill me with painful burns and headaches. help.

i absolutely cannot wait for spring break. i want to get ahead on going over to northern california to look at my future schools and get ahead on artwork, go buy my shoes, and get ready for championships on saturday and the part.


hello ED,
we meet again.
i ask of you to please leave me
you hung to me from 05 to 07.
i followed you, only to be left shattered in the remains of what i thought were my dreams. you told me lies. you made promises.
you left me standing wondering what i should do next; you led two years of my life, not much, but a huge impact.
all what was left of what you didn't take was a few flesh and bones, no just bones.
my sad corpse.
she gazed out to the non existing world.
laying her hand on the glass that seperates her. from them. from you.
shut up
the buzzing noises soothe when you stop. when we join hands. when i touch you. when death and i are just a breath away from each other.

ps
my bmi is 15.3 if you do care. i hope you're proud of me.



-i

3 comments:

Katherine said...

What was your lowest BMI?
if 15.3 is an improvement, i'm proud of you Ingrid :)

Inspiration said...

dontknow what a bmi is?!

ED?

:O

i said...

body max index.