Shallow Mondays

A list of shallow nonsense things I like (to do...which serves no purpose except making me happy):

-early mornings/dawn
-people watching
-being in Newport (being in beach cities/just by the beach makes me happy)
-shopping or brunching at FI
-movies at cinemas
-movies at the AMC in The District
-beach days, just lounging in loose shirts, shorts and sandals
-taking pictures
-wearing dresses and skirts
-shopping and browsing through Target even when I don't really need anything
-coffee chats at cafes (though I really should cut coffee out because it is so harmful for the body)
-going through organic markets; they have a very different smell compared to regular markets- fresh, raw, and earthy.
-drinks in glass bottles
-messenger bags, or shoulder bags, they feel much more relaxed and casual and sometimes you need a break off from being fancy
-salads and barely drizzled salads, healthy refreshing and a little flavor to give it a kick, and not enough to be unhealthy
-outdoor shopping centers at night

Some have been repeated over and over throughout the years.
I could go on and on and on.....until another day I guess.

Miss

I remember every day that I spent dreaming.
Of leaving.This place behind I would run away from thinking' adding up all the days spent wasted.
Chasing the girls we hated.
Some things, they, they never change.
Take me back to the sleepless nights.
The stupid fights.
It never mattered who was wrong or who was right.
You're all a part of me.
We're alive and we drive to the center of it.
Where we know we're all fine and this just can't be it
And in the end we all know we only breathe for so long.
So tonight's the night we all roll along.

Nostalgia is forever me.
I miss you. My teenage years.
And we are forever one, and you are intertwined deep in my soul making the person I am today.

No Time

currently: STRESSED OUT AND PANICKING
listening to: Beach House's album Bloom
There is literally no time in my school life.
Ever since high school started, I feel like I've always been at school from 6am-"9pm"...literally like our official end time was 9pm but we never even leave school property until 11pm-ish because we're cleaning up. But seriously my teammates (aka family) and I used to LIVE in the west end of the school ⅔ of our time at school. If I wasn't in the practice room, I was on stage, or in the studio, or in the gym. Literally we used to lay on the gym floor like it wasn't dirty at all because we were always exhausted and that was basically our home, and our real home was our second home.
Coming to college, I think a lot of people think I have a lot of time because most of that time that people see, is time I spend wasted- procrastinating, but if I weren't, and actually utilizing my time with 100% efficiency oh my gosh I'd probably I don't know HAHA. Anyways ugh this is going back to freshman year college again!

Tomorrow my schedule is SO hectic.
9-11 english
11-1230 fair
1230-1 lunch
130-? counseling
2-330 math
330-4 abstract
4-6 meet up with "x"
6-7 dinner with family?

And then somewhere between that I have to go to the theater to buy tickets and go to the office. WHAT!?
I feel so overwhelmed. And right now I still have to finish my english reading, homework, film viewing, and then math homework.
Wowowowowowowow hahaha. I haven't even coordinated my outfit for tomorrow yet!
...and I just spent too many minutes typing this out, and frick me for being so lazy and weak, I took a 45 min nap earlier, someone slap me for being a lazy ass.

-i

ψ θ φ ....and sometimes σ

Last spring quarter (spring 2013), I took electromagnetics physics, and my professor wrote pretty fast and not-neat, so that his phi, psi, and thetas all look the same...(and occasionally sigma). Yeah I gave up.

Organic Mechanisms

"What does God want? Does God want goodness or the choice of goodness? Is a man who chooses the bad perhaps in some way better than a man who has the good imposed upon him?"

"Our pockets were full of deng, so there was no real need from the point of view of crasting any more pretty polly to tolchock some old veck in an alley and viddy him swim in his blood while we counted the takings and divided by four, nor to do the ultra-violent on some shivering starry grey-haired ptitsa in a shop and go smecking off with the till's guts. But, as they say, money isn't everything."

"There was me...my three droogs...we sat in the Korova Milkbar trying to make up our rassoodocks what to do with the evening. The Korova milkbar sold milk-plus, milk plus vellocet or synthemesc or drencrom, which is what we were drinking. This would sharpen you up and make you ready for a bit of the old ultra-violence."

-A Clockwork Orange

Who's Side

I've been having a sudden adoration and gush of love for my school lately. Sure I liked the campus before, but most of my other feelings towards my Uni has been pretty neutral. I wouldn't say I disliked it but everything was just- "I'm here to learn, so be it".

I guess its a good thing. And maybe it's the sudden realization that I am going to graduate within a year or two.

-i

Things I love (and inspire me) Tuesdays

- wing-ficked eyeliner
- golden age hollywood ("classical hollywood") cinemas/films and settings
- freepeople intimates
- 1940s - 1950s
-1950's print advertisements
- my Victoria Secret Noir Tease perfume with an atomizer
- phenakistoscope, zoopraxiscope
- cherry red nail laquer
- Inglenook Winery property
- 15 denier tights
- black lace
- porcelain skin
- femme fatale

Happy Tuesday!
xo i

This is sad.
But I need to start a diet that cuts out coffee, and refined sugars.

/ healing auto-immune
/ cosmetics ingredients stuff