post-thoughts

listening to:梁心頤 - Darling
mood: empty
Finals are finally over. In all honesty- I do not think I did so hot in organic chemistry. And I vow to myself that I will try harder next quarter in every subject. I am so tired of everyone giving up on me, losing faith, but at the same time I appreciate how no one bothers me about it anymore.
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I wish I could be a better person. I wish I could be a calmer person, with patience that flows forever and knowledge that runs deep. Of course that would depend how much perseverance, determination, and dedication I have towards that matter. I need to learn how to stop wasting time. I think that I am slowly getting better in that area, not very pronounced but I know it has improved within the past 3 years. Something else I want to improve is my vision. I should stop spending so much time on my phone and computer. Also sleep earlier. I know this all sounds like random rambling and resolutions that will never be resolved but I think that the more I think about it the more effort I will put into making it happen.
-i

fresh tuesdays

keyboard clicks, 35mm film, never sleeping, constant sleeping, milk skin, red and blue edged international mail, a lover's smile, strawberry popsicles, improv accordion tunes on the bank of the Seine, vinyl, inky fingers, december, world maps, bookshop smells, basements, art, exploring, red nail varnish, old architecture, cotton paper, The Weeknd, cafés, independent blogs.

I love the way you look at me under the dim lighting that flows through the dark mahogany wood on a foggy grey afternoon. x

beautiful youth

I want to go to Paris, shop the streets of Champs Elysee, and get macarons from Ladurée. I want to see all of Paris from the top of the Eiffel and walk along La Seine at night. I want to people & fashion watch in local cafes while drinking latte. I want to visit patisseries early in the morning, and bring back pain au chocolat & baguette for my lover and me as we enjoy breakfast together. I want to fling the French language off the tip of my tongue as you tango words back at me, together we can speak this gorgeous language. I want to live a beautiful life, together in the city of love, and the city of lights.
I want to swim in the Italian oceans with my lover, hike the hills, and taste the strawberry gelato from local vendors. I want to ride a pastel yellow vespa, holding my lover as spend lazy afternoons in Tuscany. I want houses that resemble castles covered in vines, and hidden behind dense wooden gates. I want to make meals that only my lover and I share as we celebrate every meal with Italian red-wine from south Lombardy. I want pizza that isn’t cardboard like every one in America. I want happiness and only love and no stress.

I want a dreamy life with european countries and la vie en rose playing as the soundtrack of my life…if only.
one day.

18

Been missing in action for too long, I thought maybe even some random updates would liven this place up little bit. Recently I have been trying to put my focus into school, and it's more of a progression than stagnation which I guess is a good start.
B came over this weekend and I'm very thankful for that. He brought me fuzzy socks, purple-yellow Dutch Iris, and pink Peruvian Lilies which I placed and arranged in my glass bottles.


we also spent later that afternoon sticking jelly gingerbread decals onto my window. We spent all of today working on homework and hunting for Hostess products since the company went out of business and is no longer making products. We went with a friend but the two of us didn't buy anything. For our 1½ years we didn't go out to eat, I guess we could've but I made us udon noodles and I thought that was more...heartfelt. Something made out of love and effort, plus it was cute cause we both helped out on the cooking. We ended the night watching Easy A and going out for black milk tea boba at TenRen with C.
I miss him now. Wish we could be cuddling the night away...
-i

Things are hectic. I am once again behind on school again and am not performing well. My mind is always elsewhere, wishing I could be somewhere else or studying something else. I cannot wait for the day when I can travel around because I hate settling down.
Seems like never though.
-i

Collecting Dispersions

mood: tired
So the surprise that I mentioned two blog posts down, was that I'm going to Europe! Compliments of my aunt from PV. You can read all about it > here <.
I have to remember to sew pockets tomorrow, go to Daiso, check out all and pick out a camera that we own, get some disposable cameras, and .... gee there's so much to do I don't remember all my tasks at the same time.
I'm a little upset we have to ride Delta with a layover coming back, instead of direct flights with Air France. Oh well. I am thankful I get to go to Europe already, and that I shouldn't complain about first world problems.
Oh! And instead of London, I'm making a detour to Zurich by EuroStar and then fly into Milan. Yee! So exciting!

-i

Chopped

Currently: chatting online
Listening to: the sound of the keyboard's clicks
I got a haircut today. And it's absolutely dreadful- emotionally. It's about 3 inches below the shoulder. Meh, but the service and the salon was absolutely wonderful.
I needed the hair cut though. My sister said with the long hair, I looked as if my stress level was over and out.
Anyways, I've started a new blog here I don't think it's very successful or what I had intended but it serves.
I hope I start shooting in 35 mm soon again.

-i

Tuesday

now playing: serial killer|lana del rey
mood: overheating and irritated

Summer session finally ended, and on a well (not perfect though) note. I spent two days in Rancho Palos Verde spending the first day brunching and the luxurious Terranea Resort and ventured around Hollywood for the remainder of the evening. The day after, we cozied up in a tucked away french cafe for breakfast, and spent that day touring multi million dollar estates and watching super hero movies.

view from my bedroom in PV Soon after the two day escape to PV, we decided to make a spontaneous getaway to San Francisco. We spent 4 nights in SF venturing around downtown, Sausalito, and Tiburon.
I'm finally back and settled, however I think I have one more surprise around the corner. I'll update you guys later with that when September nears.

xox i.